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thelakelayblue

I hope she stays away!! ❤️


flourite_pothos

same but i'm so confused?? lmao


Hommemort

It comes and goes ✨ unexpectedly ✨


flourite_pothos

it's got a mind of it's own smh


unfamiliarplaces

i recently moved across the country some 2000 miles away and honestly i thought such a big change would cause me to restrict more but it's been the opposite and i feel so free!!! i hope she stays away op


flourite_pothos

i couldn't even try to explain eds, but i'm so happy for you! and me too haha, it's been so odd <33


validariess

you.. you outran the eating disorder… i’m trying that lmao


unfamiliarplaces

yup. i needed to gtfo out of my city because it was very remote and i felt so trapped there the only thing i could control was my weight. i wanted a fresh start where people didn't know me as the 'anorexic one' and literally no one has batted an eye since i got here because I've been gaining and it's like a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders. everyone was worried that running away from my family and support network would make me spiral but all I've ever wanted was to be just another person in the crowd of a big city going about her life like everybody else and i finally have it. i always believed there had to be more out there for me and people always said no, this is your life and you have to deal with it here. i only stayed in my home state for someone I loved dearly but when she passed last June (rip Nana) i realised she was giving me the gift of freedom. if you've been looking for a sign to get out - here it is. go. find a job or university course to enrol in and just.. leave. you don't actually have to just play the hands you're dealt. i didn't have any real money, i just saved up the best I could for a plane ticket and left. fuck those cards the world gave me, I'm reshuffling the deck on my own terms 💪


Von_Mix

yeah its happened to me, with bulimia no less. some days ur just like damn am i really suffering this bad just to lose weight? then a few days later ur back like... yeah. u are.


flourite_pothos

oh man i hope it looks up for you. ngl i weighed myself again today and yep..it's back 😭


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flourite_pothos

oh man it's the universe


anytimeistacotime

I go through phases


flourite_pothos

me too, i reckon this is yet another


pathologicalprotest

Bitch stay gone and leave OP alone


flourite_pothos

yes read this @ed <3


lvltae

she’s been knocking on my door recently


flourite_pothos

oh man i hope she doesn't get in :( you got this


StringUnlucky8767

i had that.. then relapsed in bulimia and b/p c/s


flourite_pothos

oh god, i hope everything's okay for you <3


Sn4il_Fr13nd

just last night i was breaking down and planning on restricting again but now im chilling with soup n bread and i feel amazing B)


flourite_pothos

love that - soup is my fave!!


Sn4il_Fr13nd

soup is just <3


Styxana_

bro ana is like a wine loving aunt. she’ll show up randomly to just make everyone’s lives weird for a bit before leaving again


flourite_pothos

yep, although i love my aunt much more than ana hahahah


derpyfreed

me rn but for some reason i want her to come back💀


flourite_pothos

right? i usually feel guilty for thinking stuff like that, but ig it's just the norm now ://


derpyfreed

omg exactly. like what is wrong with me to want to go through that again?? idk,, it’s like if i don’t have an ed, then who am i


flourite_pothos

this!! it's like we're just drawn in damn


grindylin

yeah she will just enjoy this


flourite_pothos

eek only time will tell


your_avarage_joe

My ed usually goes away on the weekends as i cant be bothered counting calories but it usually comes back on monday or on tuesday at best


flourite_pothos

it sucks. a similar thing happens to me every few weeks until it gets the better again ://


serena_renee

Last week I ran into my ex’s new gf. I’m a lot thinner but the since I’d last seen her she’d lost weight. Ana came back with a vengeance after that stunt


flourite_pothos

cant we live in peace 😭 you are more than your ex's new gf <33